After I Chose Death, They Finally Loved Me
Chapter 4: The Anniversary That Didn't Matter
1.1K words·5 min read
Protected Reading Content
The following week marked Elena and Julian's third wedding anniversary.
Three years.
One thousand and ninety-five days of hope, disappointment, sacrifice, and heartbreak.
Not once had Julian celebrated it.
Not once had he remembered without being reminded.
Yet despite everything, a small part of Elena still hoped this year would be different.
The feeling annoyed her.
After everything that had happened, she should know better.
Still, hope was difficult to kill.
On the morning of their anniversary, Elena woke early and prepared breakfast herself.
She cooked Julian's favorite meal.
Fresh coffee.
Eggs exactly the way he liked them.
Warm toast.
Even a small chocolate cake sat in the center of the table.
Nothing extravagant.
Just something simple.
Something that said she remembered.
When Julian entered the dining room, he barely glanced at the table.
'Morning,' Elena said quietly.
'Morning.'
He checked his phone while sitting down.
Emails.
Messages.
Meetings.
Everything seemed more important than the woman sitting across from him.
Elena waited.
Five minutes passed.
Then ten.
Nothing.
No anniversary wishes.
No acknowledgment.
No recognition whatsoever.
Finally she smiled sadly.
'Busy day today?'
'Very.'
'Important meeting?'
'Several.'
'I see.'
Julian took a sip of coffee.
'Why are you looking at me like that?'
'Like what?'
'Like you're expecting something.'
Elena stared at him for several seconds.
Then she looked away.
'It's nothing.'
Because if he didn't remember by now, reminding him would only make it worse.
A few minutes later, Claire entered the room.
'Good morning!'
Immediately the atmosphere changed.
Julian looked up.
'Morning.'
Claire smiled brightly.
'Don't forget tonight.'
'I won't.'
Elena's chest tightened.
'Tonight?'
'The charity gala,' Claire explained.
'We've been planning it for weeks.'
Julian nodded.
'The investors will be there.'
Of course.
He remembered the gala.
Just not his anniversary.
Elena finished breakfast quickly and left.
The pain felt embarrassingly familiar.
By afternoon, she had almost convinced herself not to care.
Then Noah called.
'Happy anniversary, Ellie.'
The words nearly broke her.
'You remembered?'
'Of course I remembered.'
'Thanks.'
'What did Julian get you?'
Silence.
Noah sighed immediately.
'He forgot again, didn't he?'
Elena didn't answer.
'Unbelievable.'
'It's okay.'
'No, it isn't.'
'Noah—'
'You deserve better.'
Elena swallowed hard.
'Maybe.'
'Not maybe. Definitely.'
After ending the call, she sat alone in her room.
His words echoed repeatedly.
You deserve better.
The problem was that Elena no longer knew if she believed that herself.
Years of rejection had slowly convinced her she wasn't worth choosing.
That evening, the Ashford family attended the charity gala.
The venue glittered with crystal lights and expensive decorations.
Business leaders, politicians, celebrities, and investors filled the ballroom.
Elena arrived wearing a silver evening gown.
For once, she actually looked stunning.
Several guests complimented her appearance.
But Julian barely noticed.
His attention remained focused elsewhere.
Claire.
Always Claire.
The two spent most of the evening together greeting investors and discussing charity projects.
From a distance, they looked like the perfect couple.
More than once, strangers approached Elena and mistakenly assumed Claire was Mrs. Ashford.
'You mean you're not Julian's wife?' one woman asked.
'No.'
'Oh.'
The awkward silence that followed said everything.
Later, Elena stood near a balcony overlooking the city.
The night air felt refreshing.
'Hiding?'
She turned.
An older businessman smiled kindly.
'Escaping,' Elena corrected.
'Smart choice. These events are exhausting.'
She laughed softly.
'That's true.'
'I've seen you here several times before.'
'My husband attends often.'
'Julian Ashford?'
'Yes.'
The man nodded thoughtfully.
'You seem lonely.'
The observation startled her.
'Is it that obvious?'
'Only to someone who has felt the same way.'
For a moment, Elena simply stared at the city lights.
'Sometimes I wonder what I did wrong.'
'Perhaps nothing.'
'Then why am I never enough?'
The businessman smiled sadly.
'Because you're asking the wrong people to value you.'
Those words stayed with her.
An hour later, the gala reached its highlight.
The charity board announced several awards.
When Claire's name was called, the room erupted in applause.
Julian stood first.
Smiling proudly.
Looking happier than Elena had seen in years.
Claire accepted the award gracefully.
Then she stepped to the microphone.
'There are many people I want to thank,' she began.
'But one person deserves special recognition.'
Her eyes found Julian.
'Without his support, encouragement, and belief in me, none of this would have been possible.'
The crowd applauded.
Julian smiled.
Claire smiled back.
For several seconds, they looked at each other and forgot everyone else existed.
Including Elena.
The room seemed to disappear around her.
She suddenly felt exhausted.
Not angry.
Not jealous.
Just tired.
So incredibly tired.
Without telling anyone, Elena quietly left the ballroom.
Rain had started falling outside.
She stood beneath the hotel entrance and watched cars pass through the city streets.
For the first time, she admitted a truth she had spent years avoiding.
Julian would never love her.
Not the way he loved Claire.
Not the way she deserved.
Maybe not at all.
The realization hurt.
But strangely, it also brought clarity.
Because once hope died, reality became easier to see.
Her phone buzzed.
A notification from social media.
Someone had already posted photos from the gala.
One image showed Julian looking at Claire with unmistakable admiration.
The caption read:
'Some love stories never truly end.'
Thousands of people were liking it.
Commenting.
Sharing.
Most assumed Claire was the woman Julian belonged with.
Maybe they were right.
Elena stared at the screen before slowly turning it off.
A few minutes later, Julian finally called.
'Where are you?'
'Outside.'
'Why did you leave?'
'I was tired.'
'People were asking about you.'
The statement almost made her laugh.
Not because he missed her.
Because people noticed she was gone.
'I'm heading home.'
'Fine.'
Just one word.
No concern.
No questions.
No apology.
The call ended.
Elena looked up at the dark sky.
Rain fell against her face, hiding the tears she could no longer stop.
Three years.
Three entire years.
And the only person who seemed unaware their marriage was falling apart was Julian himself.
As thunder rolled across the city, Elena made another decision.
This time, it was bigger.
More final.
More dangerous.
She would stop fighting for a place in a heart that had never welcomed her.
And very soon, everyone would learn what life looked like when Elena Whitmore finally gave up.
You May Also Like
More stories readers often continue with after this chapter.







